Next time around
Sometimes we see it coming. Sometimes we work like hell to get around it. We get second and third and fourth opinions, stay up nights trying to find an alternate solution, but eventually, we just know when it's time.
It seems that the obvious ending to this scenario wasn't they way we had it figured. I suppose there were things we were meant to learn. I hope we both learned them. I know that I learned more about myself than anything. I learned that an amazingly intelligent, honorable, handsome man can find me beautiful, and smart, and fascinating. That is a revelation in itself. I never thought myself worthy of someone of His caliber.
I learned I have a warrior's heart, and the courage of one, too. I suddenly feel like the whole world of possibilities is open to me. Anything I want to accomplish, I know I can. He gave me back my belief in myself.
I know that we have loved in another lifetime, probably many lifetimes. This time around, however, it wasn't meant to be that way. We are meant to be friends. Perhaps in the next lifetime we will be together as lovers again. In fact, I'm sure of it.
It seems that the obvious ending to this scenario wasn't they way we had it figured. I suppose there were things we were meant to learn. I hope we both learned them. I know that I learned more about myself than anything. I learned that an amazingly intelligent, honorable, handsome man can find me beautiful, and smart, and fascinating. That is a revelation in itself. I never thought myself worthy of someone of His caliber.
I learned I have a warrior's heart, and the courage of one, too. I suddenly feel like the whole world of possibilities is open to me. Anything I want to accomplish, I know I can. He gave me back my belief in myself.
I know that we have loved in another lifetime, probably many lifetimes. This time around, however, it wasn't meant to be that way. We are meant to be friends. Perhaps in the next lifetime we will be together as lovers again. In fact, I'm sure of it.
5 Comments:
Amethyst, if a person tries to figure out the whys of the world it will drive them mad. Some things you just have to accept and see what lies down the road ahead.
I suspect he considered himself extremely fortunate to be with you if only for a while. I have the idea you are one hell of a woman.
Thank you, Jason. It took a lot of tears, and trying to deny the inevitable, but when I finally started thinking "OK, what am I supposed to learn from this?" It sunk in. Thank you for your comments.
Buffalo, coming from you, that is one hell of a compliment. Thank you, so much. For everything.
Nothing from me babygirl except warm hugs and plenty of them.
Thank you Magdala...
I've missed you!
If a person learns from an experience, whether it is good or bad, then it all worked out the way it was supposed to in the grand scheme of things. We must all have stepping stones and they are the lessens we have learned. It's good that you can see the positive in it.
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